I didn't realize I lost it

Here it is again. Right where I left it before. I lost it in plain sight. Misplaced it under my nose. Accidentally dropped it under the weight of my thoughts. It wasn’t intended. It never is. I somehow just forgot. 

It’s as if an idea comes and grabs me. Whisking me away. And that thing I found gets left behind. Forgotten again. Then, one day the thinking stops and it magically appears again. 

If I look, I can’t find it. 

If I search, it is hidden. 

By grasping, I miss it. 

By striving, I forget it. 

Yet, somehow I remember again, for the millionth time. 

It’s not the doing that gets me there. 

It’s not even the there that I’m looking for. 

Again and again I remember. 

Like I never forgot. 

There was never anything to do.